April 14, 2010

still only eating clear diet. terribly bland and boring. i felt bloated in my belly. people called and visited but i don't remember what day or what time. i thought i was pushing the pain meds button a lot but the nurse said i didn't push it enough. i hated the drugs and i hated being in bed. i was getting depressed and wanted to start getting more active but with the catheter i really couldn't do much. i did some more breathing and finally wednesday night they took the catheter out. it was such a relief. i was finally able to walk around without a bag strapped to my leg. I couldn't believe how hard it was to walk again. i had a spinal block so my legs were still a little numb but trying to make my feet move was so hard. just getting up to a seated position was an epic journey and i needed a nurse or chris to help every time. with the catheter out i had to get up every 2 or 3 hours and every time i got up it felt harder to do than the last time.